It has been already 5 months after my graduation and this is my 3rd month in work. It has been a totally new environment and lifestyle comparing to the time which i used to have during my study life. I really miss the time i used to have in university, outing with friends and doing those crazy stuffs together. However now we have lesser and lesser chances to do those crazy stuffs together as everyone is now busy with their own work and study.
3rd month in work and I already can feel the difference between study and working life. Last time when i was still studying, I got a lot of time to do my own things and go out with friends even though everyday I still need to go for classes. However now when I started to work, almost everyday most of the time will be spent in office. The job I am having now require me to work even after office hours. Therefore I got less time to be with friends as after work I already super tired and dun even feel to go out. My parents keep on urging me to get a girlfriend but gosh everyday I work till so late where got time to go know girls.
Actually I already have a target and I am trying my best to know her more well but day by day it seems that my chance is getting slimmer as I am not the only one that is going after her. I really don't why every time I fall into a girl there will always be one competitor and he for sure is one of my friends who have more advantages than me. From YJ where I lost my advantage as I decided to skip standard 4 to standard 5 to AN where he is more handsome and his future is more brighter than me till the current, he live near to where she work and they can always lunch, dinner and even hang out together.
Since last time, relation is one of my major weakness. Whenever i decided to go after a girl I will put in all my efforts, therefore every time when I got rejected or I realize my chance is slimmed I will be damn down. Before this, whenever I feel that I like the girl I will think a lots and won't go after her very soon until my friend told me whenever you think too much you might miss the chance. This time I already try my best to act fast to get closer to her and know more about her and I believe everything will have the solution so I should go after what I think is right.
However I know that the final decision is not in my hand. after these 2 weeks observation, I think she will be more towards him than me as I do not have any advantage compare to him. Just like I said, he live near to the place she work so more time to be together, he is still studying so he is available any time whenever she need a company, he know how to sing and play guitar which I am not good in and lastly he knows how to massage which she needed whenever she is tired. I do not have all the advantages to tackle her, I can only try to spend my free time to go there dinner with her, try to get time to hang out with her and give her a call at night and show my concern to her.
Maybe its time to get a long holiday to think what I really want. I understand that at this stage relationship should not be my major thing in life and my career and my job will be more important. But I really hope this year I will get someone that I can share my everything with her and there will be someone that I can care of. Is my wishes so hard to be achieved? May god bless me and hope my wishes will come true.
weiloon
